Five years ago today, my best friend committed suicide.

[fatdaddycool]

I miss him everyday. I still watch his girls Melanie and Megan twice a week and they are growing so fast. Yesterday a song came on the radio and I actually reached for my phone to call him when I remembered he wouldn't answer. I still have the last voice mail he ever left on my phone. It's truly crushing at times, the sadness and emptiness the thought of his death brings on. He never said a word to either myself or Keith, the third part of our triumvirate. I recall the numb feeling I had as Keith and I feverishly cleaned up the scene before his children came home.

This is only a small piece of the devastation to your friends and family suicide leaves behind. It lasts a lifetime.


If anyone here is feeling down or needs to vent, regardless of your kinship or thoughts of me or anyone else on this site, please know you can reach out anytime. Talk to someone. Speak up! With help you can overcome anything because you're loved. You're relevant. You're needed. People around you count on you, support you, and the struggle when you leave is real.





Hope this helps,
FDC

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[Sportsaholic]

Sorry for your loss FDC, thank you for starting a Thread about this.

Suicide is something that effected my life as well, my brother killed himself when I was at college 35 years ago......The questions and the pain it puts on everyone left behind can be unbearable.....Watching my mom in tears was heart breaking, I wish he had reached out and tried to work through it......I always looked up to him and miss him everyday..... So many great times we shared and more we could have shared if not for that one short period of time when he felt he couldn't handle the situation anymore.....

As they say, Suicide is a Permanent Solution to a Temporary Problem.....

RIP Ricky



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[tcon142]

Damn man that's tough FDC. Have a family acquaintance who did the same, he also left two young, great kids behind. I can't imagine the torment depression can bring on a person and I don't pretend to know it or understand it. Nothing more important in my world than my kids and maybe I'm too simple to even think how bad things need to get when one makes that decision. its times like that or stories like you and your friends that makes me question God makes it hard to come close to trying to rationalize it.

Hang in there man, you're there for his kids for a reason!

 

[ripken8]

I miss him everyday. I still watch his girls Melanie and Megan twice a week and they are growing so fast. Yesterday a song came on the radio and I actually reached for my phone to call him when I remembered he wouldn't answer. I still have the last voice mail he ever left on my phone. It's truly crushing at times, the sadness and emptiness the thought of his death brings on. He never said a word to either myself or Keith, the third part of our triumvirate. I recall the numb feeling I had as Keith and I feverishly cleaned up the scene before his children came home.

This is only a small piece of the devastation to your friends and family suicide leaves behind. It lasts a lifetime.


If anyone here is feeling down or needs to vent, regardless of your kinship or thoughts of me or anyone else on this site, please know you can reach out anytime. Talk to someone. Speak up! With help you can overcome anything because you're loved. You're relevant. You're needed. People around you count on you, support you, and the struggle when you leave is real.





Hope this helps,
FDC

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so sorry to hear this Cris, no one should have to go thru this. Even tho I've never met you, I feel like I know you and call you a friend. Keep doing what you're doing... :0008

 

[fatdaddycool]

so sorry to hear this Cris, no one should have to go thru this. Even tho I've never met you, I feel like I know you and call you a friend. Keep doing what you're doing... :0008

You are absolutely a friend and one I'm damn proud to call so. Thank you. You and i have been communicating outside of here for years. You're one person i will make a point to look in the eye one day. Just because we haven't done so yet doesn't mean it isn't assumed. Cheers Rip. Love you man.


FDC

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[ChrryBlstr]

I miss him everyday. I still watch his girls Melanie and Megan twice a week and they are growing so fast. Yesterday a song came on the radio and I actually reached for my phone to call him when I remembered he wouldn't answer. I still have the last voice mail he ever left on my phone. It's truly crushing at times, the sadness and emptiness the thought of his death brings on. He never said a word to either myself or Keith, the third part of our triumvirate. I recall the numb feeling I had as Keith and I feverishly cleaned up the scene before his children came home.

This is only a small piece of the devastation to your friends and family suicide leaves behind. It lasts a lifetime.


If anyone here is feeling down or needs to vent, regardless of your kinship or thoughts of me or anyone else on this site, please know you can reach out anytime. Talk to someone. Speak up! With help you can overcome anything because you're loved. You're relevant. You're needed. People around you count on you, support you, and the struggle when you leave is real.





Hope this helps,
FDC

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I'm so sorry to read about this, my brother.

Stay strong and just keep being you!

Peace!