I agree 100% Monk, for instance I was at Wrigley when the Cubs won the Division in 89' and its hard to believe that things could have been better, until Mark Grace went .611 that series and Bonds and Clark hit a combined .576 and beat them.
If the Hawks beat the Stars on April 12th at Dallas to clinch a playoff spot and eliminate Dallas, and I will undoubtedly have something to talk about with childhood friends that I played Hockey with my entire young years, and celebrate a Hawks Cup victory, you would be hard pressed to convince me otherwise.
However, last month when I was in the Keller Clink contemplating why I ever drive through that god-forsaken, yankee hating, bubba town, I thought thank God I have something to look forward to. In all honesty, I am different than most because I am afraid to die because I do have questions. I do believe in God and heaven and earth, I see it every day. I experience the heaven of Fatherhood and the hell of raising a child in todays society. I think the evidence of evolution is overwhelming and yet still have faith that I am a child of God. Science and evolution and Natural Selection are real, (see Eddie Haskell for evidence that Natural Selection isn't true..lol) and are evidenced by the survival of some and extinction of others. Its is obvious in the height of basketball players, size of football players etc... And all the senses are tested as to the Word of God and Heaven when you see an Andrea Yates, Dahmer, or like I saw last year, some young kids making fun of a handicapped man in a wheelchair trying and failing miserably to eat a hamburger at the mall while sitting in a corner alone, drooling most of his sandwich on the Easter Baskets he had obviously purchased for someone that he cared enough about to put himself through obvious agony. All the while three boys sitting there less than ten feet away trying to imitate him pointing and laughing. After me losing my mind and threatening to kick the hell out of the three of them, the aforementioned man humbled me even more by saying "Don't worry son, they are just children", I have to ask myself some serious questions. I firmly believe, being raised a Catholic, that my faith in God will bring me to the kingdom of Heaven when my spirit passes on, but my question is this. Is that belief due to deity ingrained in my brain since day one that is so strong that I am willing as so many others are to deny physical truths, and believe in Him to the point putting other things aside. OR, is it because somewhere in my subconciuos mind I have already achieved the kingdom of Heaven and am presently in it, you know what I mean? This very well could be Heaven. As it could also be Hell or purgatory or limbo or just the natural order of things......yea I am not afraid to admit it....death and the unknown scares me. Maybe that is why He took Walter Payton when he did and Brian Piccolo, Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and many others that were taken before their time, to show us that there is a better place...I don't know.
