My wife & I are getting divorced. Been together for 7+ years now & we have hit the end.
I will be filling for the divorce, but its mostly my fault. I have not been there for her emotionally & failed miserably with communications.
It all boiled down to a big fight 3 months ago & I said some pretty hurtful things that broke her heart for the last time. She told me that before that night she swore would be together forever, but after the cruel things I said (of course didnt mean, but that doesnt change the effects) she didnt feel the same way. A part of her heart died that night & she said it wasnt coming back. She said she barely could breathe & couldnt believe the man she loved so deeply could say such hurtful things, how could I love her & want to protect her & be that way.
So then about 4 weeks ago she cheated on me when she went back to her hometown for the weekend to see her parents & I found out last week. She admitted it all. It happened 2x now w/ the same guy & supposedly she is falling in love with hiim. She has lied/deceived & then done it some more for the past 3 weeks while I have been trying to save the marriage, but she simply says she is done, she doesnt want to work on it, she never wants to feel the hurt I caused her again.
This is terribly sad for me. I love my wife dearly & wish I could have seen the error of my ways earlier & this all could have been avoided. Its over for good & there is an absolutle finality to it. Nothing I can do or say now. Never thought I would be a divorcee.
It got to the point where I almost put an end to all for me, but a friend got me through it. Scary times for sure. I was on the brink.
I hate life.
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