I'm all screwed up right now!

[bleedingpurple]

Just have to vent this out.... two years ago I met my friends sister in co ed softball. I'm 43 she's 25... bad idea I know. we dated a little but we remained friends... this year we decided to date. I asked my friend if he would be upset but he was happy. things were great the first 3 months but then I noticed weight loss and pushing away then marked days of sleep. we don't hang out everyday but things kept getting more weird. I questioned and questioned and finally the bomb hit... she confessed to using crystal meth. fuck me. of course she lied and said she was just using every once in a while and said she could quit. I knew better now she has admitted that she uses a lot more. I left her but the she came back saying she was quitting for good. didn't happen, I told her parents looking for then to give help and they have a rehab center all lined up but haven't approached her yet it's coming.. I have all but checked out but the worry and care for her is still there and I'm having trouble sleeping.. working nights too as I have a new client as my client for 12 years recently passed. her mom bartender during the day and I well went and got bombed so I could sleep.. I got a ride. I'm not looking for suggestions or advice. I'm giving tough love.. I can't force her to treatment even though she says she has to straighten out. I just feel so dumb for caring for a meth head. I worry about her future and what this may lead for her down the road If she doesn't get help. I went through a period of not eating and sleeping but that is subsiding somewhat, think I've lost about 10 pound and I needed too. just venting this out. never ever ever did I think I'd be in this situation.. fuck me

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[CryBoy]

Hope things work out.

 

[fatdaddycool]

Don't get down on yourself for feeling for a diseased person. You didn't cause it, nor can you cure it. Instead, maybe feel a little bit good about yourself for having such an abundant wealth of compassion for another human being. Take heart in knowing that your emotionally available to those close to you. You're a fucking hero bro. It's what everyone strives to be, some just try harder, others esky on everyone else to do it for them.

Be proud, confident and compassionate and you'll hopefully both be fine

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[StevieD]

You are a good guy to feel like you do. It's tough when a friend has problems there is only so much you can do. Hell, even she was your wife there is only so much you can do. It sounds like you are doing all that you can. It's not easy.

 

[Cie]

That story took a hard left. Sorry to hear it. Hope she gets well.

 

[BUCKY1]

Sounds like you're doing everything you can BP, hope things turn out good for everyone....

 

[carp]

I hope she gets the help she desperately needs.

 

[DZ]

Best wishes to your friend BP. You're a kind dude.

 

[bleedingpurple]

Best wishes to your friend BP. You're a kind dude.

well she crashed the other day I guess and slept through work and lost her job.. job wasn't very good. she called me and said she needed serious help. admitted that she was dependent and said she needed treatment.. looked up treatment options and rehab centers. she seemed interested. she got her check on Friday and im sure she is.spending it on meth. Her mom doesn't know where she is at.. she told.her mom that she was coming to my house to crash for a.week and get sober then go to treatment..that didn't happen. She's so screwed up. hopefully she still has rehab on her mind after whatever she is doing. I'm pretty much numb to this yet concerned.

 

[Old School]

BP she is at the see saw...

stress again that you and others can get her to the help she needs.

stay calm and advise..

the tuffest thing for me to realize was that real help was only a decision away..

Jack has my new cell number if I can be of any help..

Never messed w/Meth ...but gotta a lotta experience w/Serenity and Abstinence

http://www.stopmethaddiction.com/Meth_Addiction_Help.htm

you have probably already read and tried this..but it never hurts to read this again

 

[bleedingpurple]

BP she at the see saw...

stress again that you and others can get her to the help she needs.

stay calm and advise..

the tuffest thing for me to realize was that real help was only a decision away..

Jack has my new cell number if I can be of any help..

Never messed w/Meth ...but gotta a lotta experience w/Serenity and Abstinence

thanks a lot. I've actually been talking to a buddy who.was on Meth and finally had to leave Hawaii and.come.here to his sisters house to.be on lock.down for.30 days and has never used again. sober 5 years. I'm strong minded and have been here to advise. she's not returning text.. she's definitely using. I'm glad she is at the see saw.. that's progress cause there was a.time she wasn't. meth is some crazy shit and many of her acquaintances are on the crap

 

[bleedingpurple]

BP she is at the see saw...

stress again that you and others can get her to the help she needs.

stay calm and advise..

the tuffest thing for me to realize was that real help was only a decision away..

Jack has my new cell number if I can be of any help..

Never messed w/Meth ...but gotta a lotta experience w/Serenity and Abstinence

http://www.stopmethaddiction.com/Meth_Addiction_Help.htm

you have probably already read and tried this..but it never hurts to read this again

yes I have read just about everything about meth.

 

[Old School]

thinking of her and you..

we addicts never realize we take people down with us..

stay strong..she will need the true friend you are very very soon.

 

[bleedingpurple]

thinking of her and you..

we addicts never realize we take people down with us..

stay strong..she will need the true friend you are very very soon.

funny you mention that.... she has told me.a few times.. I didn't mean to take you down with me

 

[yyz]

Hang in there, man.

 

[bleedingpurple]

Hang in there, man.

fucking roller coaster of sadness, hate, and care. Her 4 year old is really going to.suffer. Grandma is taking charge of him and I'm taking him tomorrow for a fun day.. sucks he doesn't fucking know where she is at.. I'll keep fighting the fight. at least I can vent here im.not venting to my other friends cause they really don't need to know and honestly I don't want my friends to know that I care for a meth head

 

[fatdaddycool]

fucking roller coaster of sadness, hate, and care. Her 4 year old is really going to.suffer. Grandma is taking charge of him and I'm taking him tomorrow for a fun day.. sucks he doesn't fucking know where she is at.. I'll keep fighting the fight. at least I can vent here im.not venting to my other friends cause they really don't need to know and honestly I don't want my friends to know that I care for a meth head

There's no shame in caring for others my friend, I'm sorry you're going through this man. Hopefully she's okay and gets some help and you can get some peace of mind.

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[freelancc]

hang in there, you are trying to do the right thing. Life is like this, not everything ends well. Just give love and friendship.

 

[Scrapman]

aaaaah just fuck her a lot faster LOL jking BP tough haul with junkies :0074

 

[bleedingpurple]

There's no shame in caring for others my friend, I'm sorry you're going through this man. Hopefully she's okay and gets some help and you can get some peace of mind.

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showed up out of the blue.. hit the bed and crashed... grandma has kid. I'm off to work.. another day. I've been pressing her mom for intervention. mom seems to think she is going to come running for treatment. if it wasn't highly illegal I woukd.have tied her to bed for 30 days and gave her a commode